Usless.

Did i chaanged?
I admit I've changed.
Not change to not love her as much as last time.
In fact I love her freaking lots.
On the other hand i don't want to express it out.
Cause its too dramatic.
Don't want copy some dramatic fella.
I started to restrict myself for not thinking too much and not been a pudding.
I scare she will grow tired of me, if i continue being such a ass.
Confident of keeping her?
Seriously, i been doubting myself lately.
I know she won't leave me.
But honestly, my gal is quite cute, pretty and easy to approach.
So there will be flies attaching to her.
Recently, she friend back a fella who one sided  love her for 2years.
I concern much.
But ya, Im control myself again. Stupid ehx.
I started to control my temper also.
No point getting so work up.
I felt quite stable n secure.
In a way.
Today I will not go slp after she leave home for school.
Though backbone is freaking pain but who care.
This is the only time i can accompany her.
Once my sch start, she will be having her spm.
I will not have the time to accompay her overnight.
Eventually she might find the one sided love fella to skype with.
See her so nervous about english paper and I can't be any help for her.
Sorry about that. My english just too sux to help her.
Such a usless bf uh. Ikr.
Chilll gal. Relax n go for exam, will make u feel better.
Thats what i always do, it wont make you have stm.
The more nervous you are, the easier to get stm during paper.
So wish I could be at her side to hug her or something.
I miss her alot
Damn trials make me can't stop her from leaving.

I really love you alot gal. If u feel that I treating u like a piece of shyt, den u r wrong.
Sorry to make you feel that way, but I really have no intention to make u feel that way.
I thought if I restrict n control myself, you wont feel so fan n xin ku.
3months before we staying together.
In this 3 months, i trust you gal,
And trust me too.

Laopo, I love you.
All the best for your trials n spm.
Your laogong will always support you. Sort of. Haha.