Failure.

How to comfort a ppl? Moreover that ppl is ur bf/gf. Seriously, I sux at comforting ppl, I dun comfort ppl coz I seriously dun noe how to.

Today my gal was damn upset about certain stuff, i know she wanted me to comfort her, but i seriously dun know how to(bang head). All i can do is listen, lend her my ear, listen to wadever she wan to say, was thinking if she letting it all out would make her btr. BUT, i was wrong, it got even worse, she got more angry at me.

After she kup the skype, i wanted to call/wa her so badly. I kept controlling myself not to. Coz I think maybe she will chill down in peace, YET AGAIN, i was wrong.Seriously fked up, im not a gd bf, wadever i try to make my gal happy, i make it worse instead.

Im a guy who used to looking at ppl facial expression when talking, so over the phone, i dun noe how to talk,
but i dun wan to make her feel that i treating her cold, so i try my very best to "talk" alot but, Yea U KNOW, I WAS FREAKING WRONG AGAIN. How i wish my gal is infront of me right now. Even tho i sux at comforting, but at least i can stay by herself, let her to vent some anger on me and hug her eventually.

Im such a failure bf isnt it? All i do was wrong when i think is the right thing.

I have completely no intention make my gal angry, i wan her feel that her bf really love her alot, her bf very dote on her and bla bla bla. But i fail again. EPIC shyt.

Y im such a failure,
y i cant make her happy,
y i cant be by her side when she needs it,
y i cant comfort her,
y i cant make her feel secure,
y i cant make her feel stable,
y i cant make her feel that i love her alot,
y i cant be a gd bf,
y i cant make her chill down,
y im so weak,
y im so useless,
y im such a bastard,
y im so stupid,

Am i worthy of her?

WTF IS THIS??? staring at our ring while typing this post, make my tears drop down for wad? Seriously wad the fish is this. Y cant my water be good and stay inside my eyes, y muz it drips down.

I love her too much, more than anyone expected.
I miss her so much, that always make me go to slp, so that i can dun miss her so much. If i dun slp, i will definitely wa/vb/skype her, I dun wan to make her feel that her bf is crazy, and i scare she find me too fan.

"Gal, i will definitely keep our rule, i will do it every single night without fail, i hope no matter how upset you are, when we oct, u will feel happy. I make this rule so that we can last long, sry for thinking too far ahead, but seriously i want it to last long. I know ur bad temper, that y this rule can tackle your bad temper. This rule is a key that will lead to our last long rs. One more important factor for this key to work, is u, gal, need u really come stay wif me, so that it will give the key a push for it to unlock the door of last long rs. I kept thinking about our future, i wan you to enjoy our time tgt till we got old, we can go travel to other place for holidays and next time bring our kid along too.
So gal plz dun leave me (i know i say alot of time, but i really scare.)
I wont leave/betray you( i know u will say doubt so/ hope so, but gal im serious)
Honest speaking, i hate all the guys ard you, maybe is becoz i not there, i freaking scare one of them will got ur heart when u need someone to company(I know u r loyal), but this kind of thing hard to say de mahx. For me, you dun have to worry, u taste be4 my coldness, and i dun auto go msg ppl. IM LOYAL TOOO!!!"

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Long essay.