Love???

Can anybody explain to me what is love???
I started to lose track of it already.
Seriously, what is love???
Can it be eaten???
Can I really feel it???
All alone I pour one-sided love???
What is relationship???
What is couple???
What is trust???
What is true love???
Doubt I can ever feel that.
Anyone can enlighten me???
I'm seriously lost right now.
Y my tears keep flowing out???
Y I'm sad???
Y my heart so pain???
Am I'm greedy???
Am I'm dumb???
Am I'm an idiot???
Am I'm stupid???

In the past I dun believe love is blind, this is just bullshyt, but things changed, I understand it clearly right now.
Love is blind when you really love that person, no matter what he/she do, you will choose to forgive and forget, and continue to love him/her, even if he/she don't really love you that much, or not at all.

Seriously right now I got no mood to revise my study, I got an exam tomorrow, hope i can cope with it.
Will be a 1 1/2 hr paper long, doubt I can do it fast, as my right hand is swollen right now, freaking blue black at the knuckle joints there. Hard to bend, hope tomorrow can heal a bit, if not tomorrow will be a goner for me.

So, for whoever out there reading my blog, please remember that when you are in a relationship, don't just think about just yourself, you are not alone anymore, you got your partner, no matter how far apart, you are still not alone. When you are serious about your another half, PLEASE really love him/her, make your another half feel the love, if you really love him/her, your other half will feel and eventually will love you back.
No point keep say "I love you alot alot alot" or "I love you more" when you are doubting yourself whether you really love him/her or not.

Will I ever feel that kind of love???
Doubt so, I'm an unfortunate guy who will never be able to feel that, even though I did nothing wrong. Maybe is my karma in my previous life. My retribution.

I hope I will not be so hurt ever again. Once is enough, NO MORE.

Nites- gonna be a long night of everlasting  fountain.