Haix.

Today was really a very tough day n weird day for me. The best part is I dun get to talk to my gal much. I did msg her, but wad i get in return is ignore my msg or cold reply or joke reply. Come on i want to be sweet with her but she dun. She always said wan sweet n not argue. So when i sweet to her she dun appreciate it. In our rs there will be argument every single day without fail. Sometimes i really feel that she took my love for granted. She can disappear without letting me know, not juz few mins, is few hours. What am i to her? Cant she juz type it out in the skype or juz msg me? Such simple stuff, is it so hard to do? I wonder when she having fun, did i came across her brain? I doubt so. She having fun, she properly forgot about me already. I am down, sad, hopeless. I miss her so much. I wan to talk to her so much. But wad i get in return is ignore again. She said she slpy so she went to slp n leave me behind again. For the past few days she keep leave me behind. She enjoy her things while im the only sitting there waiting for her to come back. Thought could chat or sweet with her. But NO, it never happen, our sweetness only happen for a short period of times. I'm tired. My heart get more n more pain. She always so self centered. Did she help me think how would i feel? Ya keeping on the skype could make me feel gd a bit but leaving me there facing the sofa all day is call wad. Wadever she did there always plus n minus, so result is ZERO. not that i dun see wad she did for me, but have she think wad she do is right? Come on, i a normal human being, i also wan to spend times with my gf. I know i cant possible cheer her up through skype, but hey at least we could chat right better than not chatting. replying back cold msg n joke msg doesnt mean chatting plz. It like im sticking my face on to some cold wall. I promised her i wont be cold to her but end up she the one being cold to me. So wad is this. Can anyone tell me wad is going wrong? She always said she love herself more. So y she wan to have a relationship in the first place? Since she love her more than loving me? She juz wan to see me suffer? Whenever she mad or wad she will always bring break up without fail. At first i thought the break up thing finally stop, but recently she brought it out again. She said she wad angry so she anyhow say. But saying break up is so ez to say out? I'm tired of this pain. Everyday is so painful for me. The pain of missing her is so great that i dun know when will i break down. Seriously, wad am i to her? I really wan to know it badly. Why is she treating me this way? Haix..i guess to her im juz nth. I had enough of this pain, she doesnt know the pain i having now. Is greater than wad she suffering. I will juz be cold back to her. Be back the past me. Since she the one start to be so cold to me, so y am i continue being sweet to her? Its hurt you know. Very hurting. Saying love me so much and the things she did to me i dun feel any love come out from it. haix....