Ytd was a very tough day for me. She suddenly said dun wan to talk to me for 2wks++. I really dun know wad to do at that point of time, was freaking sad and trying not to show out. When in bus, listening to music while thinking of her badly. Suddenly the freaking chi song played, a song that she ask me to listen last time, quite a meaningful song, but it makes me miss her more badly, super duper badly and i shed down a droplet of tear in the bus. lucky no one saw, i guess, as i quickly wiped it off. Seriously I love her damn lots.
At night, she Skype me, was freaking happy and at the same time i alr moodless. I dun mean to show her face or wad, juz that I really happy but at the same time I was really sad too. Sorry.
I feel really insecure, i dun know how to explain, but part of the reason is long-dis-rs.
I tried my best not to let her feel insecure and she tried to not let me feel insecure too, ironic uh.
Whenever she use opposite words or mention about other guys help her do here n there or keep talking about her past with her ex, my heart is like sinking down to a very very very deep place. I dun feel happy but i dun wan to stop her from telling me, i know she just want to let me know, so i juz act as nth happen but sadly my acting skill suck. I dun know how to control my emotions.
Gal i really love you alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot. I really scare one day u will leave me, though u said u scare one day i will leave you too, but i can tell you this-I WILL NEVER LEAVE OR BETRAY YOU.Im serious about it, no joke. Can you dun leave me? Can you stay by my side Forever?
I dun know y I choose you instead of sg gals. To me gal is gal, nationality is a prob but not a big one. All it matter is I really in love with who?Dun noe y i start to shed tears now when i typing all this shyt. i so freaking useless man.-Shall end here-Love you Forever.
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